Life's Been Rough

Well the title speaks for itself. My father passed away April 13th and it has been devastating. It's one of those situations where you think deep down inside will you ever truly be happy again after a major lost in your life. I haven't given up on working out. I've actually been doing other workouts other then Jillian lately. And dipping in HIIT workouts that have been keeping me busy and mind occupied. I think well I know my father was big on me keeping myself up so I have to continue to make him proud. Plus this blog doesn't really have a lot of visitors so what's the point at times... Hope whoever is out there reading that you're still pushing through this journey...

This Journey Is Failing!

I don't know. I've gained back a total of 16 pounds. I would blame it on the holidays but even then the scale didn't move. I've been working out like crazy but my food intake is a different story. I guess it isnt ok for me to eat ice cream once a week or indulge in something sweet once a week. I'm just not one of those people who can. So I must refocus and rebuild. It's like this, I do SO WELL and then I start eating again not taking it into consideration that I can't defeat an exercise program with a bad diet, I just can't. I wish I was one of those people who can workout all the time and still enjoy the sweet things in life. The sooner I accept the fact that I can't the better I will be succeeding this fat demon. Who continuously seems to haunt and surround me at every aspect in life. Then I could possibly blame it on depression. My dad has taken a complete toll on our lives. He was deported about a year ago and hasn't been pleasant with any of us and I think that's getting to me. So I'm depressed and stressed out and as much as I workout its not going away, the feeling, the weight, whatever its just not. I'm not 200 pounds anymore but if this continues I'll be there again by summer. So this has to stop. I can't -- no forget that refuse to gain back that dreadful weight. I know I'm not perfect, no one is but I am in control in the decisions I make and after today -- no more excuses.

Patience

I know I can't be the only one out there looking for some sort of support when it comes to weight loss. I'm barely updating here because I'm starting to question if anyone is even out there. Well here goes nothing I guess... life's been ok. I'm still working out and trying to eat ok. I purchased new weights (8 pounds) and brought a new fitness ball. I've been burning at least 4 times a week over at a range of 400-600. I guess in order to see results I have to be on that beast mode. I've been getting back into Leslie Sansone and of course keeping Jillian Michaels right there next to it. Working out has become enjoyable but there are days when I don't feel like feeling all sweaty and icky. Ugh just the thought but I do like how I feel after a workout. I've also been enjoying Zumba again, which led me to burn 6oo+ calories in a one hour session, woo hoo. So if you're out there holla back.

Time Flies

Wow it's been a minute since I've posted in here. Yesterday I had the most amazing workout ever. I did a 4 mile brisk walk and topped it off with Week 3, Workout 4 Body Revolution. I felt totally amazing after the workout. However, I was only able to complete 68 minutes of the workout but plan on doing it again today and finishing it off. I'm still down in size but haven't lost any weight since my last post. I went to Forever 21 over the weekend and brought another size 30 in jeans, which is technically a 10. That isn't too bad but I really would love to buy a 28 by Christmas. That will make me drop at least 2 more jean sizes. The good news is I haven't gained, the bad news is I haven't lost much either :-/ Until next time...

Confession Post 1

I've decided to start doing confession postings so here goes. I confess that last summer I weighed in at 182 pounds. Now I kept it like that for about a week and then stayed at 185 for a few months. However, after the holidays I skied rocket to 196 :(. This was horrible. I was working out as usual but obviously consuming more then I was supposed to. I would blame it on the cookies but that was just the start of things. During a small snow storm we brought the most moist delicious cake ever and I ate most of it. And then for the Superbowl we brought a really thick delicious pecan pie and again I RIP'd it. BUT the good news is I lowered my calorie intake after a night of depression about how I'm slowly climbing back up and have upped my workouts so right now I'm at 190. The goal here is to get back to 182 by summer and then have a set goal of 170 before the year is over. See I'm tall so the weight gain went unnoticed. Luckily my clothes didn't get any tighter but the scale woke me up, all the way up. So there you have it. This blog is here for me to be as honest as possible with my readers and show you all how I'm not perfect. Sure there will be days where I may slip up on this journey but I'm not going to continue to slip if I know for sure I fell. I'm just happy right now to have lost those 6 pounds and hopefully will be back in the 80's by next week. I mean I was at 195, lost that, then gained it back and I don't plan on gaining back anytime soon. I'm trying. Hope my story really teaches anyone out there trying to lose weight that there will be times when you will pick up that cookie and eat it. I personally just have to learn moderation. I'm getting there.

My new HRM :)

I finally purchased the heart monitor I've been wanting to get for a really long time. I chose the Polar FT4 because it got really good reviews, easy to use, and comes with a strap. Check it out:



I love it!! So as I mentioned I'm almost done with week 1 of Body Revolution and I did Work out 2 today for about 33 mins or so and according to my heart monitor I burned:



Now that's not bad at all. This HRM is perfect. You can put all of your information from your age, bday, height, and weight. Then you can decide which your Zone limits (lower/upper) you want to go by. Remember if you want to burn actual fat you should be in the 60-70 percent range. For endurance training then of course your percentage would be at least 70-80. So there you have it. Tomorrow I plan on doing Banish Fat Boost Metabolism because technically I really only want to do Body Revolution 5 days a week and alternate between No More Trouble Zones, and Banish Fat. Happy Fitness.

Following Up

Hey guys, I hope all is well. I've been doing pretty good. I cut back carbs a lot and pretty much on a low carb diet. See the thing is you have to incorporate some carbs into your diet for the nutrition, etc. I started Jillian Michaels Body revolution. Which is totally fun but not enough. So hubby and I do that together and then we do a 3 mile walk with Leslie Sansone. I went back to Leslie because I lost a lot of weight with Leslie. I did notice however that I don't sweat as much as I use to when I do Leslie but boy am I sweating with Jillian. I visited the dr's office last week and was given a couple of vitamins to take. I mean think about it food has changed a lot. I really don't remember hormones being put into chicken until a few years ago. So the vitamins that "use" to be added I'm adding them back on to my daily life. Let me know if you guys need the names to those vitamins in the comment section and I'll make sure I post them. Other then that I'm waiting for my FT4 heart monitor to arrive which I ordered from Polar. Hope it comes seen. Until next time folks.